Rant
Well I had a interview for a cannabis lab right outside of detroit. Im in the process of trying to find a job in detroit metro area in my field and it has been a pain in my ass. Im currently in TX and I hate it. Only relocating due to me having extended family out there, my fiance, and a better support system compared to what I have in TX (I have none). I work for a refinery its male dominated and overall Im just unhappy, I make decent money but since I am a woman there is a lot of discrepancies when it comes to my pay due to sexism. Plus, Detroit and Oakland are like cousins so it reminds me of home so much.
I have experience working with a lot of instrumentation HPLC, GC-MS, extractions, PCRs, and so on. I also have my degree in Biology and minored in Chemistry, finished undergrad with a 3.5 GPA. I have 5+ years of experience. The woman I interviewed with was a white woman who has a PhD and about 7 years older than me. The interview was ok she asked me about my experience and asked if I was ISO 9001 compliant (I am) and so on then talked about if I planned on going back to school, I do I plan on just getting my masters thats it. Then she mentioned two things during my interview that rubbed me the wrong way. One was when she opened up another lab in Portland, OR it was during the BLM protests and she mentioned how it was a lot and “catastrophic” 🙄. I have cannabis experience because prior to me going back to school I worked at a dispensary for 3 years and Im from one of the first states to legalize cannabis and from the region in CA where we are known to have good bud due to our climate and soil. Anyways, she also mentioned how coming to work isn’t a fashion show and she doesn’t care about appearance and it made me side eye tf out of her lowkey cause I came to the interview with no make up damn near besides my eyebrows being filled in, lashes (they weren’t dramatic), and lip oil. Plus I was dressed accordingly for my interview and my hair was put up. Long story short it was a lot of micro-aggressions going on.
She didnt show me the lab thoroughly but I was able to see what it looked like on the outside and when i was leaving we shook hands, her hand shake was not firm at all and she gave me a fake ass smile. When I got back to my car I KNEW what type of time it was smh. She also did not mention when I should hear back if I would get an offer or not. I received a denial email from the company shortly after I spoke with the recruiter last Friday and I asked the recruiter why wasn’t I selected? And the recruiter stated the lab manager gave her no reason. Lol ok. Then the same positions that I applied for and the recruiter sent my resume off for were all reposted. Im so over this shit. And its not even just me interviewing with white women I noticed theres a lot of jealousy and what not. I have even experienced this with older black women for whatever reason, hispanic women, and asian women. It upsets me more dealing with it from women that look like me b/c to me we are supposed to stick together. Usually when I interview with a white man I get the job lol But im so over it im literally considering switching fields and saying fuck this. And its making me think I wasted my time and money going to school for what exactly?
Im just ranting lol but Im clearly upset and discouraged. Im
Career
I got accepted into an Experimental Psychology MS program with an offer of Graduate Assistantship and a scholarship!! This past month of my life has been hell, so this was such a much needed WIN!!
Misogynoir
I ended up snapping on my manager real bad and I went on medical leave without notice. I’m on medical leave so I can get my insurance money that they pay out in July.
I fought as hard as I could. I reported so much. I reported a manager for saying the N word. 2 different sexual harassment cases. Reported my own racist assistant manager. Got a few customers banned cuz they harassed and recorded me. I was successful with these cases, but my energy rubbed people the wrong way. They were scared of how hard I could fight.
I’m never going back. They burned me out when I was just trying to survive financially. I already found a new job. I’m going back to school to pursue a social justice degree. It’s my calling; wish me luck.
